I haven't written in ages.. not much has been going on to be honest..

My toe.. on my right foot the one that was totally removed back in September/October time has started being a pain.. its been growing spurs apparently. I am going to have to have them removed surgically. Great! just what i need.

I had a bit of fun with carers back about a month ago. My regular carer which i have via an agency through "social service assisted direct payments" left.. Now Social Social service assisted means basically that i don't have to pay for my carers.. some people have to.. it is means tested, they look at how much money you earn.. how much savings you have etc and work out if you can contribute towards it. I don't and cant pay towards mine. Assisted means that i don't deal with the finances.. Basically everyone is assessed and given an amount of money depending on what their needs are and then they can choose if they want to deal with the money and hire someone there-selves or whether they want Social Services to deal with the money and have an agency. Well when my carer left, the agency told me they didn't have anyone who i could have per-mentally, eg every day so i would have to have random people wash and dress me etc.. i didn't like the idea of this so i thought about dealing with the finances myself.. as a few people i know do.. but then the agency heard i was planning to leave them and magically found someone! I had alot of concerns about dealing with it all myself for example what happens if you hire someone and they call in sick. At the moment with an agency if my carer is sick i just get someone else..it is all alot of hassle! So i have a new carer.. she is very nice and very good at her job :)

I am having an operation soon, i went for a pre operation assessment about a month and a half ago and had to have some tests.. one being for MRSA and they apparently found i have (had) it i had three swabs, the first two came back negative for it, the last one came back positive for it. Everyone.. my Doctor included said that its pretty impossible and chances are it is a false positive.. however i still had to have the treatment.. covered in pink goo daily and nasal cream.. yum yum.. i have had three clear swabs now so i am waiting for my general doctor to write to the hospital to re-refer me so hopefully i can have the operation soon!

I have been having alot of problems with my left hand recently.. I have always had tingling in both hands with the neuropathy and hypermobility.. both thumbs mostly numb.. well both little fingers went numb a while ago.. however my little finger on my left hand feels really odd.. the numbness has travelled down my hand to my wrist and across to my middle finger.. so four out of five fingers are numb.. with the little finger being the worst.. i have a really odd sensation from my little finger to my wrist.. like the skin and muscle is too tight and i cant move it properaly.. like my finger is being held in an odd position.. its hard to explain.