Changes...

I havent written in a while.. thats not because stuff hasnt been happening.. its because stuff has been happening but i havent been ready to tell the world..

Everyone knows i have fibromyalgia.. everyone knows i have hypermobility syndrome.. but not everyone knows that i am big.. as in very big.. this is a mixture of several things.. steroids... not having correct portion size for a large portion of my life (over the age of 16) due to stress factors.. and also in the last few years being unable to exercise.

For the last 18 months i saw dieticians and was eating correctly but was unable to lose weight.. eating two wheatabix in the morning, cupasoup at lunch time and a cooked tea time. We dont have crisps or cakes or biscuits in the house so i never snacked.. but yet my weight still crept up it was in the end detirmied to be lack of excercise was the reason for this.. as i am on crutches and a wheelchair and only able to stand with crutches for about 1-2 minutes at a time so ten mile hikes are out of the question!

Just before christmas after much desicion making we.. (being me and my fiance) decided that i wanted to go for a gastric band as that would help me lose weight.. I saw my General Doctor and she filled in the paperwork and in febuary i had a appointment at the local hospital baratric centre. I saw about 8 doctors, shrinks etc who knowing more about the subject than me told me that a gastric band would not be a good idea as gastric bands are better for people who are able to a) exercise and b) are over-eaters. So a gastric Bypass it was! I was due to have the operation in May but in the Pre Op it was found that i had MRSA and it took alot of testing, medicating and too-ing and throwing before i was " most people still think it was a mix up as i had to have three MRSA swabs, the first two were clear and the last one came back infected which is pretty bizarre surely all of them would have been.. oh well there was no arguing with them and had to go through all the treatment!

In July after all the all clears came back i went for another Pre-Op i hadnt actually gotten my hopes up that the operation was going to go ahead because of the screw ups previously but the tests came back clear and i am due to have my operation on the 11th of August 2011. At the moment i am on a carbahydrate free diet, i started last thursday it is suppost to help you lose weight before the operation and also to shrink your liver to make it easier and cause less complications during surgery.

I am not that nervous at the moment i am hoping it is going to help with alot of things, that it might make my asthma a bit better, it might help with my sleep apnea although it is possible that the sleep apnea is due to fibromyalgia or it being hereditary as several members of my family have it and not just being due to being overweight. Losing alot of weight is also going to help with my legs.. well i am hoping so i may find it easier to walk.. i may not.. i am not naive.. i dont expect the operation to cure everything and to be able to jump and dance.. i have had fibromyalgia quite a few years now and i was born with hypermobility i am still going to be screwed up.. even if it helps my legs a bit.. my hands.. arms.. back..feet.. migrains.. twisted shins etc are all still going to be there.. I am looking forward to losing weight and not having people stare at me.. blaming my weight for all my problems.. i am not stupid i know people do.

I had some of my medications changed today at my General Doctors as my stomach wont be able to process some of them.. and i will require daily vitamins as i may not be able to absorb them as easily..

I know the next few months is not going to be easy.. maybe eating for the rest of my life is not going to be easy.. for at least four weeks after the operation i am on "babyfood" style food.. then on food with some substance.. by christmas i might be able to eat properally but from then on only child sized portions.. but it will be worth it to be "normal"

I have the rhemotologist on thursday so will have to see if he makes any changes to anything.. wednesday is my birthday.. and on the no carb diet i am not allowed cake.. lol sucky.. oh well it will be worth it! I will just have to tell myself that!!