Pain

Not much to say.. but i wanted to write this, the pain is getting worse mainly in my legs the back of the top of my legs, the back of the bottom of my legs. A little in the front of the top and bottom of my legs. The pain is getting so much worse and it feels so tight and excrutating more than i have ever felt before in my legs it. It is there day and night whether i stand or sit or lay down and makes me cry in pain. It started before the Gabapentin so it is not because of that.

I feel like i cant cope with it but i am trying my best to because there is no alternative i am taking my daily morphine morning and night as well as extra morphine as i am allowed to but it is not enough to take away the pain. I hope that this is not going to ruin my christmas to much :-(

I want to see my doctor but i dont think there is much they can do and i think they will blame the Gabapentin and take me off of it and i really want to see if it works i may just have to put up with this pain for the month and a half or so till the Gabapentin kicks in if my sanity can cope that long!